So my new shoes came yesterday!!! You would of thought I was a kid getting a new toy, I was clapping when I saw the Fed Ex truck pull up. The delivery guy said "You must really want what is in this box." YES I DID!!!! Wow, I put them on and oh man, you forget how much cushion is in a new pair of shoes. They felt sooooo good!!!
I went out for a run; hoping and praying that it would be pain free. New shoes and no running for a week should do that , right??? NO- I ran 5 miles with slight pain. Nothing that cold stopped me but the pain is still there. I was crushed and very disappointed. I ran the 5 miles in 48:15. Overall it was a really nice run (despite the pain) I noticed that if I tighten up my stride and concentrate on my arm swing (front to back vs side to side) things felt a little better. But overall the pain is still there. After sleeping last night the pain is really still there- darn hip!!!
So, what to do????? Run the marathon, run the half marathon??? I really really really want to run the marathon. But am I kidding myself. I have run a full marathon without training for the last six weeks before ( marathon #1 due to a torn IT band), so I know that it can be done. I really wanted to PR this time around . So so frustrating. Why is this decision so hard- really this is just a running race. It isnt an exam or anything. My brother asked me this
"How much does this race mean to you?"
As he pointed out this wont be my last one, but I dont want to injure myself anymore than I already am. So I have been thinking about this for the last few days -- how much does this mean to me???? Then it dawned on me on why I am having such a hard time with this decision.
I am in a MOPS group (Mothers of Preschoolers) and within this group I started a Fitness Challenge. Last year we ran a half marathon. This year there are 9 women that are running the Borgess Run for the Health of it events with me- 1 doing the full marathon, 3 doing the half marathon and 5 doing the 5K. They have said that if it wasnt for me they would have never taken up running and believed that they could run so far. Oh man! What an honor!! I just get so emotional writing that. Then there is this- the shirts that we are all running in. We are all wearing matching shirts and they say on them "Christa's Fitness Challenge" (and a bunch of other things). That is why this race means so much to me- 9 women trusted in me, believed me enough to put my name on their shirt. . They are running with my name on their shirt. Darn it, why does my hip have to hurt! ?!?!?!?!
So, I think I am just going to rest the hip- cross train, do a little running (maybe) and then go for the gusto on race day. Full Marathon!! Worst thing that could happen is I DNF. but I will know that I started it- and hopefully I will finish it.